I get discouraged a lot lately because I have no time to feed or replenish my soul. I see my husband taking the time to relax and soul search daily...be it long soaks in the tub, photography, naps, hours of reading, a walk outside, time to journal, just sitting. Last night resentment built up in me. I am ashamed to say that I lost my temper and it was not pretty. I explained (in my yelling voice) how it’s hard to wake up each morning and get ready for work...to spend a full day in my office working hard at something I am not passionate about. To know that I am still stuck in the ‘past’ while he gets to pursue our ‘future’.
You see, I am ready to move, to make a new home in a new country. I know there will be stresses and culture shock and language barriers. I am ready to step into it. I want to embrace the culture, the language, the people. I’m ready.
But God calls me out. He reminds me that I’m not ready, and that if I just trusted Him...I would see that.
You see, I am ready to move, to make a new home in a new country. I know there will be stresses and culture shock and language barriers. I am ready to step into it. I want to embrace the culture, the language, the people. I’m ready.
But God calls me out. He reminds me that I’m not ready, and that if I just trusted Him...I would see that.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
